Well, it hasn’t been easy.
If it is easy to quit while heavily addicted to anything then your not from this planet or just a liar. After a 60-day stay at an inpatient rehab, diving headfirst into the 12 step program of Alcoholics Anonymous, working all 12 steps to the best of my ability, the work doesn’t stop. Thinking there is an endpoint is not the way to think when involved in any program.
I do not discriminate to what medications you may be on or need during your recovery, the only path I can truly judge is my own.
When I hear in meetings when people stand on a rock of righteous illumination on their point of view, what others should do instead of talking about themselves shows me the many fallacies within any fellowship of recovery. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one, and they stink. So I try my best to steer away from giving opinions (I guess it is a bit negative on my part to say that because some opinions are very helpful). There is a difference between someone that wants to hear themselves talk and rant about what they believe is right and someone who genuinely cares about a person that is desperate for a positive helping hand.
So taking this into my mind and the countless experiences I had, I do not discriminate what drug is or drink you take. I do not preach on you being on or off any prescribed medication, and cannot judge you if you need these meds or not; I am not your doctor or physiologist. The only person I can judge is myself and my own life. I am a big believer in knowing the things outside of my control and what I can change or not change.
So with that said, I become very aware of what is going on when others speak on sobriety, and what their true motives are.
To me it is simple, I’m not here to convince anyone of anything, and I’m happy with my mind and progress. A negative opinion or really anything that comes my way won’t tip the direction I am moving in, I won’t fall off balance and stay away from negativity.
Remember this important fact, whatever works for you might not work for me and vice versa.
When you take a hard stand on what you believe is right or wrong, it only makes you look ridiculous in my eyes. Save it for someone that lacks a mind of their own, because frankly, I’m tired of hearing soapbox speeches to boost your bullshit ego.
You want some fake love and acceptance; rent a prostitute. You want to bitch, whine and cry about what is wrong with everyone else, look in the mirror. Do you want to unleash your anger on a group of people struggling? Please feel free to punch yourself in the face; I’ll help if you want.
Leave that crap outside; no one wants to hear it.
The reason many people stop going to meetings, and why all the fellowships get a bad rap is due to this behavior. Lifesaving means being destroyed by a single loudmouth at a meeting, turning away a person whose attendance might mean life and death. Words hold power; please think before you speak.
Thanks for reading